frustrated.
vexed.
tired.
exhausted.
depressed.

i just wanna go some where far alone
where i dont know anyone
staying home doesnt makes me feel good
dont wanna face camp people either
i dont feel like speaking to anyone
i'll get irritated easily when people speaks to me
seriously in need of a getaway.

fuck.
how unlucky can i get
normally i dont even will go touch the letter box
then today my dad ask me fetch the letters to him
normally i will forget this kind of things
but like miraculously i remembered to open the letter box
and i just took the letters and left my keys at the box
it was only when i entered the lift then i realised
i stopped the lift at lvl 5 and rush back down
but my keys are gone
and i was locked outside my house
why is everything happening this way
like my parents are already in hospital and yet i have to make them worry
i am already like 21
yet i cant assure them that i can take care of myself
and they still have to worry for me
i feel like a fuck.
curses to the person who stole my keys.
ram over by the mrt.

people changes.
it doesnt really matters as long as it does not concerns me.
people who dont cherish themselves.
wait till its too late to regret.
for those whom i love
i almost lost them.
i love them more then anything else.
i cant cry in front of them
cause i am already 21.
i just have to swallow my tears.

i'm just your typical guy. adolescent, dealing with growing pains just as any other normal human would. except what sets me apart is that i am lewis and i am the supposed owner of this forsaken web page. i'm odd in the way that i have very frequent moodswings and i argue a lot with everyone. so i guess i'm your typical, not-so-typical guy.
i'm just who i am. metro, a SNAG and the oh-so-annoying bitch. lazy, cranky, irritable and irritating in every way. just living out my life as normal as i possibly can. with friends that can hurt me to the core and enemies that surprise me. it's no wonder i keep this blog.