if u are reading this
people told me there are alot of misunderstandings
and i should talk to u nicely.
i wanted to leave it and not touch on it again
but yet u come to me offensively
saying i am causing a disturbance on ur friends.
so are u a representative of their inner voice?
and i should thank you for wasting ur sms
i am fine with anything de
so dont just keep on ask me to go to u
if u are unhappy u shd be the one coming to me
i wonder if u all surname is 'lai'
cause now everything u 2 point at me
if what u 2 want to hear is 'its my fault'
i would be glad to grant ur wish
you think you will make things better
but you only makes the matter worse
please stop it
if anything is going to happen
it is all because of you
林宇中 - 失恋学
初恋那个夏天我们学会热恋
要快乐有条件幸称有要诀
后来牵手很累我们学会告别
低估了想念
越想越危险越想见
我们忘了学怎么失恋
深夜该怎么不掉眼泪
还不了解爱的情节
一旦下了片不再上演
我们忘了学怎么失恋
移情别恋治不好失眠
偏让那不经意的遇见
却视而不见
我们都掩着
哭红了的双眼nice song
appropriate too
HOHO
hmm
blog is really a amazing thing
sometimes theres a tinch of irony in it
whats a blog for??
is it an online diary?
but isnt diary supposed to be personal?
then whats the point of writing online when u wants it to be personal?
because anyone can just randomly wander and hop into ur blog
if a person wants to write on blog means the context is meant to be known rite?
then whats the point of keeping a personal blog then??
simply ironic
lolss
random thought
my impression of lin yu zhong is a cool cool de shuai young guy
but he looks old
the face abit saggg
hmm he is still like jj shi di?
shouldnt him like younger?
anyway
think he is an upcoming singer
his songs are like touching
filled with tinch of sadness and grief
hmm
he sing nice songs
hope he will like become famous
you imbecile contradicting morons can just go bang ur heads on the wall
i pray hard that u all fall so hard such that u wont even get the chance to get on ur feets ever again
i am really sick and tired
u all are simply suckers
suck up to ppl
pathetic
someone once told me
people do changes after time
and as u grow up
one of the things you will lose is friendship
it will not be long before u see ones true colour
however its only though time
which u will be able to see who are those who is left
which are ur really true friends
yes its over finally
dont really got alot of gan chu
first time i didnt tear
hmm
dont have the feel to tear
yup lots of things happened
its over
so why bother rite?
a very coincidence day yesterday
i was too tired to go nus
and wasnt feeling too good either
so i decided to pon
received ht sms at 10 plus
she also too tired to go biopolis
and told her supervisor she wasnt feeling well
called yf
she was like 'i just woke up..'
called sc
she was like 'huh.. what thing..'
zy took mc too cause she wasnt feeling well
all of us ponned unanimously!!
lols
and me ht sc went kbox
sc can sing de lor..
she sing very nice de
always ge siao only
yf pang seh again
u know u know..
reason no need to say le la
after which i went to kap to meet ron ben & gls
they just finish student aid day
then went weng house ton
played abit mahjong
and won hurray
they play so slow lars..
then also no mood play
then talk talk talk and soon every one concuss
woke up at 11am
then we ordered pizza
lol
sometimes i dont know who is the one having problem
its either u are too insensitive that u dont care about how others feel
or its i am too sensitive against the stuffs u said
the stuffs u said gets abit irritating sometimes
u are already like planning who to do what already
and who to be in or not
seems like u are very impt person
ben posted this to me
and i can only say
i dont think i am capable enough in ur eyes
so why bother?
u already have everything planned out
u can even trust outsiders more then me
to u
i am just nothing
i get very sick and tired of it
same few people think they are correct cause they are experienced
dont bother
i dread living in this kind of society
sometimes i wonder
would i be happier if i am not here in the first place
maybe i will
firstly it doesnt matter for i am not that significant either
i am not a good worker too
so i guess it wouldnt matter if i didnt turn up for camp
just tired of the loads of shit..
heard this story on radio just now
the theme is how someone inspired you or whats the best gift you ever received
this guy talked about the friend
who almost attempted different ways of suicide
due to break up with the bf
then he accompanied the person for 2 days 2 night
talk to the person
rot with the person
and he also learnt alot of different views from the person
different perspective of life..
after hearing
there was this kind of feeling lingering around which i couldnt explain
i see some resemblence in the person with me
during that dark period of time
i did thought of commiting suicide too
its the mixture of lonliness and other troubles
which almost drive me over the edge
luckly someone was around to guide me through
although not totally
but still i think i have seen through some stuff ba
for now i can only say
suicide is only a form of escapee
and its a selfish thought
dying is easily
but its the friends
ok maybe not so much of friends
but especially the family members who are left behind will be suffering and grieving
please treasure ur life..
because its very fragile..
and no matter how hard it is..
just have to bit on hard and persevere on..
thats life..
有种鸡屁股的感觉..
臭臭的!!
boo cyf
hahas
有种幸福的感觉
=))
i think the outside world is full of lies and facade
for instance today
i witness how the people at nus bitch around the others
i guess everywhere also like this ba
i think i just need to adapt to it
and learn how to blend into them like they are
lies and facade..
anyway i am happy today
just hope that i dont make people angry by accident
sometimes i feel my presence is really redundant
i guess i just need an aim in life..
i just want to be happy
and lead a normal life..
i dont know is it me or what
but is that meant for me?
sometimes i think i am kind of skeptical
i dont really know if you can be trusted
infact the number of people i know i can trust can be counted by 1 hand
dont really want to trust too much anymore
once bitten twice shy
just like hao being betrayed by his so call 'best' friend
and he is going through a bad stage now
so that brings the issue
can i really trust you..?
i think i will stop finding you..
because i dont think i am good enough
and cause of my uncertainty of myself..
i will not pursue anymore..
dont want to hai u..
sorrie..
sometimes i wonder..
is it because of u i became like this
but i wont blame u for anything
nevertheless this is the path which i had chosen myself
maybe u are just a catalyst
if u werent here i would still be living in a dream of my own forever
u are the person who woke me up
made me happy
and left me alone hurt
although its over for some time
i declare that i still like u alot as a friend
but seems like we have drifted further and have different mindsets
it sometimes dreads me for i get very upset after talking to u
i guess u hate me ba
because my attitude simply sux
i am childish
and u have matured so much
i would be contented if i can go back to the time when we are still good friends and stay there..
that applies also to the others too..
