this trip back to the island really flood back tons of memories..

"the coy line which how i always faked out during morning run
the soc ground which i always fail to complete
the yummy roti john of canteen
the dump which i did my guard duty
the route which i always sang my way through during the long march
the starry starry sky which i love to gaze upon when i slept in the open"

places.. peoples..
yes although life is not as taxing in my current vocation..
it just feels empty sometimes..
like what i told my sis
i dont really like to change environment as i will have a hard time knowing people
its not easy to find a friend whom u can click with, crap with, stick together with, share ur troubles with.
yes i feel blessed that i have people who stood by me whenever i had loads of shit.
but its like i feel that the times we had was not sufficient.
i want to see all of u every single working day.

life. is definitely not easy
at times i am afraid that i will become some useless bum who only stays at home and dont even go out to earn money
i think the best thing i ever had this life, is my family.
however i have tons of defects which sucks.

i dont know how.
i dont know what.
i can only wish for life to be better.

i'm just your typical guy. adolescent, dealing with growing pains just as any other normal human would. except what sets me apart is that i am lewis and i am the supposed owner of this forsaken web page. i'm odd in the way that i have very frequent moodswings and i argue a lot with everyone. so i guess i'm your typical, not-so-typical guy.
i'm just who i am. metro, a SNAG and the oh-so-annoying bitch. lazy, cranky, irritable and irritating in every way. just living out my life as normal as i possibly can. with friends that can hurt me to the core and enemies that surprise me. it's no wonder i keep this blog.