i am trying my very best to be optimistic and stay happy
but sometimes cant help it ba
the clouds just sets in
dampens my spirit
and that xiao rong scold me for being late today!
who the fuck she think she is
when toon chai said he wanted to close one eye
and she make a fuss
freak her
i am not under attachment la
and its not as if i am not doing my work well
knn

wo kuai le ler
=D =D
i hope i can stay happy
=D =D
be optimistic!!
yay

yes i thought through le
and yuling was correct
think through what is there need to be solved
those who cannot be solved just strike it off and leave it
just accept it as it is
be optimistic
i am not going to let the fate manupulate all my life
and thanks to one of the audience
whom i didnt catch the number
i live my own life
didnt expect to recover so soon
i thought i would need a week
but 3 days was sufficient
smile =))

headache..
i feel so cold..
be it physically.. mentally.. and emotionally..
i want to be free of all the boundaries..
wake me up from my dream..
allow me to face the reality..


are you the person who is going to make revolution to my life..??


just as i thought the worst has happened..
something even worse happen..
my 19th bdae had left such a great negative impact in my life..
a day which i will never forget..
i still cannot handle everything..
true its not something which can be handled in just 1 day..
i just want to hide away for now..
and disappear into thin air..
i was being ask to just accept it..
for theres nothing else i can do..
i can only say i need some time to settle down
and come to terms with myself..


i am really glad you called
it really made me happier..
but i am afraid..
i dont want the readings to come true..



on my 19th bdae
things will not be the same again
this thing just struck me
serve me right
he just hit everything on the spot
just uncover all my under cards
such that i am not able to react
i cannot cope with the sudden influx of arising issues
i brokedown
but all in all
its still my issue
i am the only one who can save myself
but i cant now..
i guess i really need some time to settle down
and face it myself

happy 19th bdae to me
oh well
birthday doesnt really matters much to me
its just a normal day
really there isnt any meaning in it
just let my wish come true..
thats all i want
although i am not hopeful

ha..
feel so much better now after calling in..
thanks yu ling jie!
ufm 1003 rawks
love listening to it
from 730am to 12midnight
listening to it has become part of my day

hais keep on diarroea
but its fun =))
get to rot at home to rest..
and will slim down too!

stupid cat
make me so happy
yet displeased
feel like strangling uuu!!

it had been almost 2 weeks
and i didnt noticed anything
was kinda shock when i heard it today
well..
i was being posted this qn
hear already why no comment?
hmm.. i would say..
i didnt really know what happened in the first place till today..
and i am not involved directly..
i think i am just not in the position to comment ba..
hope the sun will shine after the rain for them
maybe i will step in if this persist..
maybe only..
would i be too nosey if i were to step in?
well..
see how it goes..

freaking tired after trial camp
enjoyed it
realise loads of stuff
and not that i am being mean here
but some people are just simply practically useless
stand there be statue without helping
irritating peoples

lost things are never meant to be recovered
be it materialistic
earrings
or emotionalistic
passion
relation-listic
friendship
the 3 factors have the same common traits
they have been lost
after excessive exposure to degradation of time and space
gradually
its just gone
it doesnt really matters
seriously

feeling down..
maybe i am feeling stressed up too..
sometimes i feel that i find wrong fyp partner..
because we seldom communicate also..
dont know..
and she does things really slow..
and i like to finish everything quickly..
i am like trying to ren..
and ren.. and ren..
i dont know when will i explode..
but i will try to ren..
because i dont have a choice
those people more ah with me all had partners..
and i dont..
at least if my partner was someone whom i really ah with..
everything would still turn out to be fine despite the toughness
but no.. i dont have any choice at all..
sounds pathetic..
yup it is pathetic..
i got the urge to cry
i really feel like crying..
freaking tireds..
i just want to lie flat on the floor and die..

freakyy
tmr begins my fyp
3rd year i go
time really flies
think i am kinda hypersensitive
oh wells
dont care
dont bother
yep

sometimes i wish to make myself disappear
if not change my bloody character
thats why now i choose to remain silent most of the time
say more = wrong more?
being someone more background is not that bad also
the loud me is more of a bitch
sometimes its irritating too
be gone bitch!

sometimes u really piss me off
dont know la
u just made me me off
maybe i am too sensensitive
and i picked up some stuff which u are trying to show
dont know la
i shall just remain silent
my new motto in life

dont know
dont care
remain silent

yay the horrible exams are over!!

do you know..
i am still waiting..?

imm is freaking freaky!!
grr
full house and desperate housewives waiting for me!!

i'm just your typical guy. adolescent, dealing with growing pains just as any other normal human would. except what sets me apart is that i am lewis and i am the supposed owner of this forsaken web page. i'm odd in the way that i have very frequent moodswings and i argue a lot with everyone. so i guess i'm your typical, not-so-typical guy.
i'm just who i am. metro, a SNAG and the oh-so-annoying bitch. lazy, cranky, irritable and irritating in every way. just living out my life as normal as i possibly can. with friends that can hurt me to the core and enemies that surprise me. it's no wonder i keep this blog.