a very fattening new year indeed
and imagine i had to do my pat project?
although i am free
but i still feel like procrastinating..
duh!
this time i didnt sms everyone to wish them..
see how many kind souls out there still remember me
sadly..
not much..
boohoo
well its ok!
i shall wish everone here..

to all my very very gd frens
very gd frens
gd frens
frens
bad frens
not frens
still..
wishing all of you a happy dog year
=))

the quiz perfectly describes how i feel
its totally SPOT on..
i guess i am too dependant on others ba..
i dont ask for much really..
sometimes..
i can be happy with just a little concern from ur..
even if its not concern..
i can stay happy by just a simple conversation..


"Close your eyes and let your memories embrace
you"
In your past, (whether it be as a child, a certain
relationship with someone or just a specific
timeperiod) you found happiness. Now,
however, you have lost it, and wish
desperatly to go back and relive it all.
Because you focus too much on what has
already happened, you have a problem with the
future and don't really wish to go there. You
have mourned this loss for quite some time
now, and are too used to it to let the
familarity go. This situation is making you
frustrated, because you can't do anything
about it, but you remain unwilling to release
your memories.

What is Your Phrase? [for darker people]
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still trying very hard to stay normal since yesterday
where i was stoning after training..
missed a few single deck 74 because its single deck..
was wishing for a non air con double deck..
however to no avail..
and after that..
thanks zl who came over to the basketball court to search for me at 1am..
i just dont feel like going home..
and present this side of me to my family..
so i just sat at the basketball court..
drank long island iced tea..
feeling so floaty..
and although he cant really help me to solve my problem..
but his presence was already enough to give me support..
i related the stuff to him i guess..
some tears flowed..
at least i didnt cry..
i mean i just need to get my thoughts off me..

on a lighter note
i have been enjoying my shopping trips these 2 days
saw alot of nice stuff
so far only bought a white belt
so fattening tooo..
yesterday ate sakae..
today ate crystal jade..
tmr gotta eat marina steamboat..
watch my love conceige
and its so touching.. *tears*
zz.. my tears are forever flowing easily..
whatever..
i want my new year ang bao!!
gotta add new stuffs on my wish list

i had a dream..
in which magic & spells does exist..
and i led a team to this isolated island somewhere..
to capture this mad scientist..
who create clones of normal human beings..
however those clones do not have their own thinking..
they are destructive and only does the bidding of the scientist..
magical war begin between the 2 of us..
then somehow we kill the scientist..
and the problem left was..
what to do with those human clones..
although they are clones..
but they are also human..
at the end..
i have no choice..
but still to eradicate them..
feeling guilty..
as if i had killed someone..
sighs..

yichao said
"i suspect gordon is gay"
i said
"i think so too!"

i think the retest was harder then the common test
except for the mcq which were still okie
but i literally ask ppl ard me for answers
bleah

went queensway to shop
bumped into gls
i mean so nice seeing them bonded within one another
1 big group shop together
reminds me of my time =))
although they can be irritating at times..
but still
the most irritating thing is
why do i see that knnpcb gao bu zua within them?
that bastard which thinks so highly of himself
and best at fabricating his own stories
loves to fantasize about his own popularity
when he has none?
eeww
seeing him makes me contorted in disgust
pollute the gls
super disgusting..
go to hell man!!

oh ya i gotta start doing shopping for open house..
seems tedious
aww..
pray that things will go on well =))
if all goes well
that concludes my job for this working year

i slept throughout the day
stupid gordon went to call my dad to ask where i am
wth?
why cant he call me instead
and my dad bombarded my phone
woke me up from my sleep
whatever
i self declared holiday today
i just need the sleep
just let me sleep
dont feel like waking up at all

its just the feeling..
of emptiness..

heard something sad today
my friend was pretty upset with her bf
she found out that he likes another girl in his class for quite some time
last time she ask him about it and he said nothing
she cried last night
and tears flowed while she was relating the whole thing to me
while i hear her story
i dont know why
i simply understand the way she felt
the feeling of deception
disappointment
unfairness
she keep on think about it and was so down
i know its no point and also not to be so irresponsible to just say
'dont think about it le'
because its not something which can be controlled
especially when u are free
the thoughs will just run wild
i told her to keep herself occupied with stuff
at least she wont have time to think
and if i were her
i will not hesitate to break up
i mean if theres a 1st time theres always a 2nd time
what for hold on to a relationship when theres no more trust
and even if dont break up
its highly impossible for her to totally forget about this incident and stay as normal
end up she will be the one feeling miserable
if she were to let go
yea it will be saddening but at least
after sometime the pain will subside and will not come back again
hmm..
thats how i feel..
maybe because i did experience something like that before..
thats why i know how she feels..
sighs

did so badly for imm..
so much worse then expected..
hmm this shows that no point studying..
feel so tired..
and open house stuff is hot on my heels..
fretting fretting..
still got to take amb retest..
imm summary..
pat ptc project..
shytty..

had dinner with yf & zy at market..
then ate too full..
strolled to the bus stop in front of sch..
via the sports complex..
pass the pool..
saw alot of canoeist..
playing ball in the pool..
then got on bus..
overslept..
reached the interchange..
miss my shopping king show..
tireds..

what was i thinking..
what was i expecting to see over there..


Ayumi Hamasaki - HEAVEN

What you offered straight to me
With a smile for the last time
Was just so beautiful
That I gave way to tears

Surely, that day
The two of us touched love

We sought for each other
Lost ourselves at times
And found each other at last
So whatever result may be waiting for us

It's nothing but
Destiny

la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

In the sky you set out for
Stars are shining tenderly upon me

Stay by my side, my love
Crossing over time and changing your shape
You see? The future we haven't yet seen
Remains here like this

Stay by my side, my love
Crossing over time and changing your shape
The future we haven't yet seen
Remains here

Trust me, my love
You live within me
So I'll never
Say good-bye to you

Surely, that day
The two of us touched love

==================================

sometimes i wonder..
does the problem lies with me..
or the others..
am i the one who has changed..
or its the others who are changing..
if i am in the wrong..
can someone just wake me up from my nightmare..

i didnt expect to realise so much stuff..
just from a simple night cycling..
too much to say..
yet cant be commented..
i was affected by everything i seen and realised during the night..

especially him
i literally stared at him when he was speaking..
the way he portrays and speaks..
i could not recognise him..
because thats not the person whom i once know of..
isnt it sad that a person whom was once close..
just became a complete stranger..
not even with common topic to talk about..
although the sadness is there
but theres nothing i can do
and i had already actually pass on this subject..
just that some stuff i seen today..
allow this feeling to come back to haunt me..
i wont shed tears anymore.. really..

and to that yf who bang into railing..
so sad that i couldnt be of help when u were injured
because i cant enter the ladies
but the rest did a great of treating u better
rest well..

alot of things are no longer the same anymore..
its just a bad day..

well i did expected to fail amb
its okay because i really didnt put in my best effort into the paper
at least better then those people
always kpkb say "aiya fail le lar"
and score like 80 and above?
i can only comment..
humans are so born to be hyprocrites
thats all i can say..

i bought my ayumi new album =))
(miss) understood

ate dinner with ht at cine
then saw her JP
she say faster go faster go
i haven even see till haha..
then i bumped into another of the GKs
hur..
friday 13 sia..
really!

nite cycling tmr!
so exciting
my 2nd time cycling
hope i still remember how to cycle
and it doesnt rain!!

yay..
although sch ends late today
i still went to town with yf n royston
like everywhere is having SALE again!!
zara is clearing la!
although not much top left..
but thanks to royston
i have a liking to coats!!
my beige coat!!
zz..
but seriously..
royston taste has improve TREMENDOUSLY!!
he isnt the old him which just looks at sports stuff
haha
i am so impressed
he is now obsessed in those shirts with FLOWERS and STRIPES!!
at least now his fashion sense is more open
and can trade pointers
wee~
i want to buy..
the beige coat..
the brown pants..
the green top..
i am so tree..
=))
let me win toto lehs..

sometimes tv drama can be just so insipring
i learnt something from my 9pm drama

"its best not to have any expectations..
such that it wont lead to any disappointments.."

i mean this phrase really sounds so true
in terms of every aspect..
hmm..
i guess i will be normal
as long as theres something to keep me occupied
=))

disappointed..
maths got 77..
3 more marks to an A grade..
zz..

oh i finally saw my TT sample!
i think its nice!!
its not screwed at all
u shithole!!
zz..
first person in 2006 whom i detest so much

theres no amb prac today..
stupid gordon only told us during lt in afternoon..
when our prac was in morning..
made us waited for nothing..
and with andrea and co
we headed for lunch in westmall
that la mian house..
and so so so unfortunately
theres a mini roach in the food
i was damn pissed off
catch the waiter to scold
and we got free deserts
zz..
i mean really la
imagine we are paying for the price of the restaurant
and yet as restaurant
they do not have their cleaniness concious
ought to be scolded
they should be glad that i did not shout out
'OH theres a roach in the food!'
well..
ya so unfortunately..
i mean they are unfortunate to meet a customer like me
bleah!

once again
theres the ren ci charity show..
the only charity organisation which i supports
and once again
reverend ming yi's caring sprit towards those patients really touched me..
esp the part when he was so affected and he broke down
because he said that the nkf incident made the public lose confidence in charity organisations
and even the artistes whom put in all their hard effort to raise funds
were being reprimanded..
my tears simply fell.. really touched..
i mean really la..
like because of the nkf incident created public awareness..
and now ppl are more careful towards donation..
such that reverend ming yi has to really go all the way out just to raise funds for the needys..
he really has my respect for him

i tried by best..
by calling the donation number without my parents knowing
well..
thats the best i can do ba..

yay the rain is still falling!!
i lurve rainy days =))

omg!
ht confirm with what i heard yesterday!!
he is the one who is screwed!!
fuck you!!

frickin pissed..
and i had to endure the whole bus ride alone with him!!
i chose to slept my way through with my ear piece on
rather then communicate with him

i learnt to enjoy the long journey to school..
especially on non aircon buses..
i will just sit at the same place everytime..
open the window to the maximum..
and just enjoy the wind blowing on my face..
meanwhile blast my mp3 in my ears..
it just simply feels so great..
like i am in a world of my own..
then the sky was so interesting..
i noticed 2 dark clouds coming from different direction due to the wind blowing from different side..
and slowly they covered the bit of sunlight..
as they mixed together..
the ions and water molecules will interact together..
ions will spark of lightning..
and as the water molecules join and accumulate into big molecules..
it fell as rain..
=))
i just enjoy being alone on buses..
enjoying the wind..
infact i love places with wind blowing on my face..
seaside..
can just sit there and think..
shall find chance to go to beach to sit alone..

well..
i did expected it..
whatever..
sick and tired..
dont bother to care..

amb really sux la..
prepared to fail!
but its okie..
at least i am not like those ppl who always say fail end up still score so high

those jc people today at kap really pissed me off
the amount of them were like..
occupied the whole kap 2nd n 1st floor
and they were like having party?
making so much noise..
zz..

sometimes..
whats the point of reminiscence the past again..
yea true..
memories are indeed memorable..
but its all the past..
and they can never come back ever again..
i have already seen through it..
i wont try anymore..
i can more or less still survive by myself..
after all i have to move on someday..

梁静茹 - 我还记得

十年后的今天遇见你
年少轻狂已远去
成熟稳重也保持距离
沉默里千言万语
时光回到那年夏天
公车站前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说你好吗
一句问候填满青春
别人的话都听不见
岁月凝结在你的视线

我还记得那年倾盆大雨
狼狈奔跑穿越几条街
握紧的双手
为爱的不顾一切
我还记得那年你的声音
耳边回荡那一句誓言
你吻我的脸
都是我心中收藏一生的快乐

渐渐我们都有新朋友
多久不再并肩走
忙忙碌碌看人生匆匆
忘记了年轻的梦
好想回到那年夏天
教室门前你笑容满
面拍拍我的头说你别哭
考坏一次不是末日
未来还有很长的路
我们要一起去看世界

我还记得那年晴空万里
那一道飞机云的弧线
蜿蜒着思念
写下故事的总结
我还记得那年你的年轻
刻在从前最美的时间
在我生命里你不曾告别
不曾走远

与你重逢前一个夜晚
往事在梦中上演
终要去体验真实人生的残缺

so dead for amb
its even worse then imm + mst2..
rawrr
suxxx..

i heard this song so many times..
but this is the first time i caught the lyrics..
quite meaningful..
which goes something like..

you are like the oxygen to me..
which i cannot survive without..
however..
i am like a lifejacket to you..
which you only approach when you need..

lalala~
screwed amb..
=))

2 common test down..
well..
was abit disappointed with myself..
because i spent alot time studying on imm and mst2..
and i guess around 20 marks gone for each paper..
i guess its really fated that no matter how hard i tried..
i still wont do well either..
my well is not just a pass..
i have studied so much for it..
and i will definitely will not be satisfied with just a pass..
i aimed for like 80 and above when i put my heart into it..
compared to last time which i dont even study for ct..
that one fail i got nothing to say..
but for these 2..
i have been studying everyday since christmas..
sacrificing my holidays just to look at the dumb notes..
i really got nothing to say la..
why just couldnt i get a better understanding of some those shitified IgG IgM..
sometimes lifes just so pretty unfair..

i guess i have really seen through everything..
let go of so many things..
its okie..

what happens when..
u are so damn bored..
and yet ur close friends are so not free to entertain u?
its ok really
i was literally anyhow msning everyone on my list
those ppl whom i haven talk to for long time..
sec sch peeps

talked to this friend of mine
who will be going ns in few days time
he says he feels like a sitting duck waiting to be slaughtered
as if he will be going to jail
and how he will change into a coarse person

ns.. a topic which i have dreaded since as long as i remember
is no longer a thing which i can avoid
some of my friends have already entered it
and most probably i will be in it too next year
really wonder how much i will change..
well..
leave this to next year ba

next i went to anyhow call ppl
most of the people didnt bother to pick the phone..
sc did!!
and she entertained me awhile..
then i went to call some other people..
but sometimes its amazing
because i will have more stuff to talk to them
maybe its because i have really left them out..
seldom communicate with them because i am too obsessed with my close friends..
so who did i called?

i called royston
still remembered the times when we are same class in 1F08
hes really a very fun loving and playful guy
although sometimes i dont like him to be so unserious when hes supposed to be
and hes more close to that gang (due to his playful nature) but yet he doesnt belong there
hes more of an individual ba?
but still..
find him for entertainment is a definite positive choice
because hes filled with crap!
filled with vulgarities
but one thing i like about him is hes outgoingness and playfulness
its really a pity he repeated module..
and we are no longer in same class..
we talked about our future dreams
well even himself also dont know what to do next time
he wished to start up business on those sports brand
cool idea..
whereas for myself..
i really dont see myself able to survive in life science industry
researchers/doctors looks boring to me..
now my interests is in more practical stuffs..
hair stylist.. fashion stylist.. make up artist.. DJ.. variety show host..
bryan wong is a host who i look up to =))
if i am gonna be a hairstylist or make up artist..
i will work my way to the top and be famous!
ppl like david gan and andy lee..
but after all..
its just a dream =))

sometimes i feel that..
it a wrong choice for me to be in comm..
maybe i wouldnt have barriered myself to the same few people..
and kept the others away..
furthermore i am not outstanding at all
and people may feel that i am just getting cca points without doing anything
because i am not good at anything
nowonder ppl talks behind my back..
but its okie really
because i talk bad about others too
humans are born to be hyprocrites ba..
and i thank the title of being a 'comm member'
for giving so much pain and agony

i should work towards my new year resolutions!
=))

are you sure???????
that today is the 'happy new year day'??
it just seems like any normal saturday!!
no new year mood at all man!
even look at the live telecast from mount fable
got space for people to walk lor!
and what awaits?
common test..
so wth..
my fav times of the year..
is the last few days of december..
but it always just pass by so quickly..
and unknowingly..
very soon..
the weather will turn warm again..
and i am beginning to miss december..
sighs..

what i wish for..
is to have more time..

i'm just your typical guy. adolescent, dealing with growing pains just as any other normal human would. except what sets me apart is that i am lewis and i am the supposed owner of this forsaken web page. i'm odd in the way that i have very frequent moodswings and i argue a lot with everyone. so i guess i'm your typical, not-so-typical guy.
i'm just who i am. metro, a SNAG and the oh-so-annoying bitch. lazy, cranky, irritable and irritating in every way. just living out my life as normal as i possibly can. with friends that can hurt me to the core and enemies that surprise me. it's no wonder i keep this blog.