la..
recently quite sensitive to numbers..
when ppl ask me wats my age..
i type 18..
then when i see the number was like thinking..
oh my gosh i m 18 already??
then when ppl ask me poly yr wad..
its yr 2.. then was thinking again..
so fast yr 2??? werent i in yr 1??
hmm..
so i guess everythings is happening too fast..
seems like everything is kinda sians..
i just dunno wad m i thinking either..
i guess everything is hidden subconsiouly..
ha.. i just dunno wads going on ..
feeling listless..
sighs..
seriouly i hate this skin already!!
but theres nothing nice out there..
i just wish tt i can rot my days away everyday..
wats wrong with me anyway..

kinda restless these few days..
cyc finally returned the ct paper..
it was horrible..
didnt expect to score 60++
i feel stupid in my class
cuz all of them always study so much
they say they score badly when they get 70+ 80+
if not is those always get 90++
i guess i m hopeless..
had dinner with qiurong and others at xi mall kfc
then got this grp of ah siao blackies
keep on diao us and talk abt us
ji tao sibeh kaopeh
cuz of them nowonder the world is so dark
then huiting was high..
on horse and meow meow =x
oh..
i m sick..
getting headache so frequently..
eping said i look pale..
whereas zhiyi and huiting said i look butchy..
-.-"
i guess cuz i only had 2hrs of sleep last night?
ha..
gonna comatise..

i wanted to exfoliate..
but all the skins were uglier then this..
having a terrible headache since just now..
today is simply horrible..
first time i feel so much for everything..
i have seen alot..
heard alot..
i just simply dun understand..
why does things have to end up this way..
theres so much stuff which i cant say..
anyway i guess its also pointless..
so i think the best is dont comment at all..
ever since the cycle has begin..
i have stepped into a bottomless pit..
everyday everyday..
i m sinking bit by bit..
till one day when i have been buried..
it till be my last straw for breaking..
looking and hearing everything..
really kinda saddens me..
i guess it has already come to a point that..
i dun really want to say much..
for things wun get anywhere better..
sometimes i wish i can just cry anytime as i wish..
but i cant..
miraclously i can when i m watching sad show..
i feel so uncomfortable on the bus just now..
that i almost cried..
but tears just wont flow..
maybe i m on a autumnthousand mood now..
sighs..

*piece of advice for dying hair in neighbourhood*
seems like whatever colour u wanted
without bleaching
it always ended up being brown
tch..
although its cheap
but its not the desired colour either
tt explains why i have to go to those expensive saloon
i wan my reddish purple
instead of being brown

hmm..
thing just didnt really went as smoothly as its supposed to be..
accidents STILL occured!!
grrr..
however not to mention..
some stuffs were still prevented..
once again..
my wound has been added with salt..
oh wellss..
nobody understands anyway..
ha..
wadever..
ron.. u know me well..
and yet u dont..

a day of rotting
and i got this urge
to eat finish a big bag of lays chips
big bag of nachos
SAKAE buffet
i really miss sakae ALOT!!
anyones??



woo hoo~
a day when CT is over is so kinda relaxing!
although acmb paper kinda sucked
when tt 15 & 8 marks qn i simply left it blank
hurss
if i can pass
its really by luck
hmm..
anyway anyway
wats after the paper is most impt!!
had fun meeting up with qiurong
ate a free dinner at pasta mania
why?
because QR saw a rubberband inside my plate
and i tot it was some capsicum
we call the waiter
and the manager asked would i like a refund
woow! who doesnt!?!?
ha..
and we enjoyed the period of laughter
at coffeeclub!!
cheesecakes~
mudpies~
countrypie~
chocolate fruit fondue~
and zy laugh till lao water
ht and qr eat till then bag kana lai ..
ha..
after tt we went meet peijun
woow..
and yak away
till its time to go home
=))
then THAT hei hei de sc keep on say
i eat too much grrr
n i will grow fat!!
humphs
=((

heex
ABC was quite simple and straight forward
except for the mcqs
which were kinda tricky
1 more to go!
and tt last 1 is A killer..
ha..

we went town ha..
must say a BIG THANK U to SC
hehe for treating me my fav xiao long baoss~
it just tasted so heavenly..
the skin..
the soup within..
the meat..
oh no i just simply lurveeeeeee it!!
ha.. cant wait to eat again next time..
now i m missing the crystal jade on the basement
the one which sells dim sum & porridge & almond cream!!!
ha..
missing sushi too.. maybe sakae?
ha..

but eat so much its fattening..
why am so big size?
ha..
wouldnt it be nice if i m smaller size
cuz all those nice clothes are only available in S or XS
which is like MADNESS!
i just hope i can just dilute out my fats!

hehe..
since everyone changed their blogskin..
so i went to change mine too!
in the midst of studying for ABC
><
*back to ABC i go..*

urgh!
i have been so drained today after CCTA paper
even though its an hour
but TT hour robbed me of all my energies..
sighss
i dunno how to do quite alot lo
even though i DID studied for it..
furthermore the questions were from the past yr papers!
but yet i didnt have the answers..

oh the majiam big 'o' like salesman approached me!
this time is selling NYDC coupons!!
and i bought it!
i think its on impulse eh?
cuz the vouchers is like hmm..
no desert de!
awww..

omg i downloaded tsubasa chronicle original sound track!!
damn nice..
so soothing ahhhhhhhhhh
i m gonna melt in the OST le..
hehe..

zhiyi cheer up..
dun gloom..
dun so fierce also..
dun scold me..
CHEER UP!!!
we will be behind u always~
zutto~ zutto~

seeing this ice cream thingy on everyone blog
hehe i decided to have a go at it too!!
hmm i cant imagine life without internet for me
i will definitely die of boredom u know
and guess what?
my net died on me the whole afternoon!!
and i was like fluttering finding stuffs to do end
up i really have nothing to do
but to watch da chang jin with my mum..
LOL!
and i m forced to read my ccta notes over and over again..
since theres nothing else for me to do
seems like its inevitable eh..

You Are Rocky Road Ice Cream

Unpredictable and wild, you know how to have fun. You're also a trendsetter who takes risks with new things. You know about the latest and greatest - and may have invented it. You are most compatible with vanilla ice cream.

to all my dearest bao beis out there
dun swing
dun look down on urself
never give up
for the battle hasnt been fought
i for one will resort to all sorts of method to win this war!!
waajajajaja

ooo steamboats for dinner!!
because there was a guest in the family
hmm.. i also dunno hows he related to us
hes like my dads generation de
heard is my grandmas cousin childen..
then also consider as my dads cousin rite?
lol.. i shd call him uncle rite?
anyway he lives in america i think?
cuz he just now ask me if free go america play
-.-

okay!
i have been trying damn hard to study already
been reading through the notes over and over again!
but seems like its not working!!
think i just have to burn it and drink it
or put it under my bed such tt it diffuses into my brain
hehe maybe i shall try that later
*back to my ccta*

while i was walking down the stairs of the overhead bridge..
theres this piece of tissue..
stained red..
its BLOOD!!
then u can see like markings of the blood dripping on the stairs..
woo...
maybe someone gotten chopped up?

okay seems like i have been mia for the whole week!
hehe everyone was asking me to update
so .. here i am

monday was graduation
well i look kinda cranky in such formal stuffs
zz
oh and we enjoyed eating whatever is left for the buffet
cheese cakes and fruit tarts were yummys!!

tuesday was my instru paper
hmm i think the paper was managable?
though cyc did have some funny questions
then me ht sc ended up in town after sch
instead of studying yea
kinda need to relax!!

wed thu was being wasted cuz i ended up playing games whole day

today met up with yf in sch to study
yup saw zy.. and she sat down
and we begin looking at ppls blog..
esp ...
laughed so much
then sc came
and begin talk talk...
till when zy left for the meeting
then we started studying ABIT..
dinner at west mall bk..
sins!!
fats!!
may the fats be gone in just *poof*

oh great!
i have just been pissed by this person!
any guesses??
okay its not like the person never pissed me off before
maybe its unintentional
*i tried to be pH7*
and yet the person has gone too much over my limits
i m really sick and tired of seeing the person
causing sooooooooo much troubles
i feel like just slap the person is da face!
maybe the person just dun meant it
*still trying to be pH7*
or its the nature of the person to be this way
*trying damn hard to be pH7*
i think the person dun even know that i harbours so much negative feelings of the person
but i am just so so so irritated & disgusted by whatever the person has done
i will repay the person for everything he/she has done to us..

pardon all my ramblings
i m saying all this because i just want to be at least true to myself

oh and a special great thanks to HUITING!!!!
who keep on secretly mo mo de support me
and showered me with sooooooooooooooo much care and concern

zzzzzzzz i need more time !!
i have been trying very hard to study!
but seems like the stuffs are only diffusing into the brain at the rate of 1kb/s
just like the rate of my download torrent
so slowwwwwww
and theres the graduation thingy tmr
zzzzzzzzz
another day less to study
knn..
i need more time~

within the flame..
the phoenix rose upon from the ash..
spread its wings..
and rained its flame of life on me..
whatever after death..
is rebirth..
which was why i woke up feeling regenerated!!
everything was sunny!!

my day was spent doing some housework
before i went to relax at my facial treatment
then was at my grandma house for dinner
they catered for buffet
cause its my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary
my aunt on a pokemon movie for the kids to watch
end up all ran off and i was the one watching it
actually i really think pokemon is cute
the show is actually quite nice
although its meant for kids but..
pulsie & minun is sooooooo cute
=x

heh.. firstly
specially to yf sc ronnie mofo jessie
sorry for making u all worried for me over the past few days
but i think i have accepted all the facts
and moved on already
if not i wun be waking up feeling so sunny rite??
okie.. i guess its time for me to move on..
towards my goal of owning a cup!

sighs..
i have done it again..
ought to slap myself..
i shdnt have yelled at my fren..
because i m so pissed with the experiment..
not to say other stuffs too..
i m like so guilty now..

sometimes i wish i lived within a book..
at least its more exciting..
lifes with magic.. fantasy.. romance..
rather then such a dull life..
of just schooling.. working.. then in the end life just fade away..

seems like the aftermath of it is so horrible..
well..
i dunno what to say already..
i have changed..
to some idoit who will just anyhow anyhow shout at someone..
i just feel so bad now..
my body and my soul doesnt coincides anymore..
urgh..
let me die..




oh now i cant even blog..
oh well..
sometimes things are just not meant for it to be..
i wonder in life..
is everything predestined..
its like things dont always happen the way u expect it to be..
so are u plain unlucky or what..
or is it just another ordeal thats supposed to happen in your life..

i want to travel all the way back to the past..
change the past.. present.. future..
how i wish that time paradox will occur then..

kill me..
stab me..
i have absolutely no idea how am i going to carry on..
i really hate to face the facts..
no doubt theres nothing i can do about it..
maybe i have made the wrong choice in the first place..
theres just too much stuff i hate about myself..
hate my toenail..
cuz its grown in..
and my toe always hurts..
theres too much stuff i want to say..
seems like i can only let it slowly build up..
till the day when i suddenly disappear..
maybe just like *poof*..
whatever..

oh.. and..
many many special thanks to JESSIE..

hmm i shd study u know..
but i m just too lazy to study today..
yup..
results were out..
congrats to our new main comm..
we have to work to make LSCT a better place..

today reach sch then dulan already
seems like everyone is in a bad mood today..
its like everyone is having grudges against one another..
hmm..
but cant help it..
its not like they angry for no reason..
its not like i angry for no reason..

i m soon upgrading to be a pig!
imagine waking up at 1pm..
sleep at 4pm..
wake up 7pm..
oh well..
i guess theres really nothing much for me to do except studying?
oh! i spotted another butterfly again!!
hmm..
can anyone tell me the significance of seeing so many butterfly?

oh and i opened the prezzie tt mel gave me
it was so nice of her
fancy her giving me & chair belated bdae and valentine prezzie??
when its was like how many mths ago???
and its a v cute mini doggie soft toy
u know those kind the nose big big one
so sweet of her..
and one thing..
the name of the doggie is call..
S.T.Bernard..
LOL!!!
*tsk* SC..
LOL!!!

hmm after reading yf & ht blog..
ya.. wat i was trying to say is something liddat..
just tt i cant put them in words..
does the title really tt important..
sighs..

finally..
a day out with my sec sch frens..
feeling so relaxed today..
cuz nothing related to poly..
a great way to escape from my problems..
we started talking about the past..
and i guess..
i m really a person who always run away from problems..
last time always liddat.. now also liddat..
yea i guess i have to master the skill of selective hearing..
i have to brace myself!

sch was horrible..
sdar efficiency sux great time..
and end up ron IS inside!! *yay*
but..
today some of them are gave at us strange looks..
for instance..
when me sc yf were walking along the road..
he said.. see the 3 main comm de walk together..
its like its still not the final yet..
and i dun like it why do he have to say this..
i really dun like it..
at that time i dunno how shd i describe tt kind of feeling..
sighs.. shdnt comment too much on this..

the bus 174 broke down while me & sc were on our way to town..
such luck eh?
but it always feels good to hang ard with zy ht sc yf ron..
craps and more craps..
but i wasnt really in the mood to crap..
i kept on thinking abt wadever i wrote above..

at kinokuniya..
i spotted this book named "parallel worlds"
its kinda interesting..
which talks about dark matter..
and being sucked into black hole may lead u into a parallel world..
travel though time..
Time Paradox..
i hope to really know more about such time-space stuff..
its really cool..

when i reach my doorstep..
i was frightened by this flying object..
i tot its was a cockroach!!
but its not..
its a beautiful butterfly..
but wats a butterfly doing outside my doorstep
at such hour?
and at 13th floor?
then i saw another same kind of butterfly
but its not moving..
it just lay there.. motionless..
i really wonder wat all these means..

the nominees are out..
i really feel sooooooooo...
speechless?
and i feel so bad for ron..
sighs..
my vp no more..
i m feeling so disturbed..
argh..
those shd get in never get in..
then those..
sighs..

i'm just your typical guy. adolescent, dealing with growing pains just as any other normal human would. except what sets me apart is that i am lewis and i am the supposed owner of this forsaken web page. i'm odd in the way that i have very frequent moodswings and i argue a lot with everyone. so i guess i'm your typical, not-so-typical guy.
i'm just who i am. metro, a SNAG and the oh-so-annoying bitch. lazy, cranky, irritable and irritating in every way. just living out my life as normal as i possibly can. with friends that can hurt me to the core and enemies that surprise me. it's no wonder i keep this blog.